We do not so much need the help of our friends as the confidence of their help in need." Epicur

"Friends show their love in times of trouble..."
-- Euripides (408 B.C.)

So...Friends huh?
What is with people and the need to USE a friend?
What is it with someone that always takes and when you need it the most they let you down?
What is it that when someone finds a different set of friends they tend to forget who was there for them in the first place?
Is it right to use someone and then dispose of that someone after you don't need the help anymore?

I guess either I am doing something wrong or I keep getting the boot from friends. I guess I am too eager to help. I guess it's in my nature to answer always my cell phone and be there for anyone who needs me. I guess I am meant to be used and then when my help is no longer needed, I get to be disposed of. Why do I keep doing it, I don't know. Why I keep being nice, I don't know.

There is one thing I need to learn: to trust less, to help less and be less than nice. I need to learn to say NO and say I DON’T KNOW. Maybe I will stop being used. I don't ask for help often; but when I ask, you better get ready. Because if you are less ready than when I was for you, I will cut you off from my life. I don't need part time friends. I need full time friends. You get what you offer. If that would be true, I should be getting more than I actually receive. Somehow there is no balance in the shitload you get for all the big loads of good you give.

I am tired of being there for everyone and nobody there for me. I am just tired of people. I am disappointed. I am not asking for much, I only ask to be considered in your plans without you having to ask for permission to do it.

"Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival." CS Lewis