A sad day

Today I woke up to sad news. My friend's mother died last night. She was a wonderful woman funny and witty, warm and compassionate. I will miss her and I will pray for her family to get over the pain easier.

Is funny how we get so attached to people that are not blood family and we get so disconnected by the ones who are. Sometimes strangers prove to be closer to us that our real family bonds. Sometimes we have people that are closer to us than a brother or a sister can be and they are just...people from the distance, but you feel them so close to your heart and you feel their happiness or their pain.
Sometimes life brings you back bitter-sweet memories and dealing with so many feelings at a time is overwhelming. People from our past surface at a given moment and turns our wold upside down. Is it that they are just meant to be to open the wounds all over again so we can regret the past or it has a deeper meaning  such - look up to the future. I am not sure at times what it means. I do believe that God puts in our path people that sometimes need a second chance or just brings in our way people that will change our life. Sometimes in good or even in better.

I am at a crossroad right now. I am trying to sort out my feelings form my past that happened to come back at me with a vengeance I might add.
We have one life to live; we have to keep going forward because that is what is meant, we have no "reverse" on life. But we can keep going and sometimes we pass those important people because we never had enough time to watch them pass by. Happiness happens when you let it be and when you hold your heart open. It is like a warm fuzzy blanket in the cold that covers you, but not in the entirety. There is always something that sneaks around like a draft of cold and keeps trying to take it away. We have to hold the happiness while we can and with both hands when it's there. Or the draft will take it away from us.

Life is short. There is no reason you should deny your happiness because you think that your sacrifice will be enough. Never go around and deny what you deserve because someone took your smile away. Smile and the world will smile back at you . Cry and no other than your best of bests will be next to you to hold your hand and comfort you.
Just live, take chances, try to be happy. Find what makes you happy open your heart and just do it. Don't let another day go by without asking yourself :what is my next dream to achieve? If you don't have any dreams you are so dead inside. Find one. And when you find your dreams coming true, you will find the greatest reward : happiness!